The title of this blog.
And just like that, I'm another year older.
I graduate on June 6th, 2013.
I started my senior year today. And honestly it's really hard to believe. It's my last first day of school, well, regular school anyway.
I'm still in shock that I'm even 17. I started this blog right after I turned 15.
I have my driver's license now and have a car that is sorta kinda mine.
I'll be applying to colleges in the next few weeks.
I'm happy I'm growing up, but I'm sad at the same time too.
The past year was really life changing for a ton of reasons. I'm still dealing with things with different people. I'm not proud of the way I'm acting. I'm becoming someone I never wanted to be. But I'm too scared to hurt people to change it.
I think high school is just a huge learning experience. It ruins you, but in a good way I think. I'm a lot different and more tough than I was when I walked through that door as a freshman. I think if I looked at myself now from those innocent freshman eyes of mine, I wouldn't even know myself.
It's scary how fast people can change. But in high school, you have to change to survive.
My old friends who I still speak to today even noticed it. They said I'm not as nice to people as I used to be and I don't let people walk all over me anymore. Which is good. But scary, too.
I think I finally found who I am as a person. I'm just having a hard time accepting it.
So a new chapter began today. If it's anything like the last chapter, it should be a huge roller coaster.
I realized a lot about friends. I realized there are people there for me and people who care about me, even if it doesn't seem like it a lot of times.
My confidence has grown some. Which has taken years to do. So I'm proud.
I wanted to post this summer but I really just didn't know what to post about, to be honest. No one really cares about this blog, so these upcoming posts will be more for my emotional sake. But if you care enough to read them, then that's great. Go crazy.
I hope the new chapter's of your lives will go great. Happy new school year to everyone.
If you're having a tough time, I promise you, it will get better. I know from experience.